8/09

        Jeremy and I were picking up medicine for his mom at Walgreen's and we found a baby penguin pillow pet for my large penguin pillow pet.  It's so cute that I had to get it.  Then we went to Winco to get ingredients for making chili.  I had planned to use my ground beef to make my sister's delicious version of shepherd's pie, but decided I wanted chili.  I hadn't made it in a long time.  It turned out really well though.  After cutting the habanero I stupidly itched the bridge of my nose, I figured it wasn't my eyes so it should be okay...  I was entirely wrong.  My eyes watered and the oils from the pepper went right into my left eye.  I don't think I've ever felt pain like that before.  The kitchen sink here is ghetto.  The faucet itself doesn't work, but the sprayer does.  It stings to spray your open eye with that alone, add the pepper oil and it's almost sickeningly painful.  I finally thought up the idea of filling a bowl with water and just soaking my whole face.  After a long time, almost a half hour, of dunking my head over and over, it finally stopped burning.  I found out something of interest though, if you keep your eye closed and just wish for it to go away you can cause permanent damage to your vision.  Luckily, after the initial shock, I started rinsing it out.  I had never experienced that before.  I'm usually pretty good about not itching my face while cutting hot peppers.  Annoying thing is before I started chopping I had contemplated putting on some vinyl gloves to prevent such an incident.  Needless to say, I put them on after that ordeal.

 This adorable creature almost gave me a heart attack earlier.  I had booted up this laptop and while I was closing some unnecessary programs, I happened to glance over just as Molly bit completely into my laptop charger, which is always plugged in due to poor battery life.  As she did that my computer completely lost all power and would not turn back on.  The only thing I could think of was that she shorted my laptop and that I was screwed.  There is no room for us to hook up a desktop anywhere in this hoarder's house.  After twenty minutes of crying and venting to my sister and father, still trying to turn it back on all the while, I thought to take out the battery and try starting it up.  It worked!  So I tried putting the battery back in and it's been running fine since.  I can typically deal without having a computer and internet.  But this place is very confining and incredibly boring.  I would be stuck watching Jeremy play video games all day, and I really don't have much fun doing that.

        I just downloaded a grammar checker because I'm a bit self conscious about my grammar usage, but it doesn't seem to be working.  Lame.  Growing up, I had switched schools very often and too often it was the same material I had been taught in English before.  Almost every school I attended only focused on vocabulary and spelling.  And all the schools had used the same vocabulary books.  So I often had to study the same exact book every year.  It was quite tedious.  And it made me fail the English part of the entrance exam at the community college.  I ended up having to take the remedial English class that didn't count for any credits.  I would have finished it that semester and been able to move on.  But I had to withdraw from school in the last few weeks due to horrible personal problems.  I was unintentionally pushed into going back to college the next semester but I could barely get up to go to class, or for anything.  I'm mostly over it now but once in a while, when I get too stressed, I relapse into not being able to do much of anything. 

        Enough of that, I haven't really done much yet today.  I washed and dried a few loads of laundry, did the dishes, watched a few episodes of 1000 Ways to Die.  I probably won't be leaving my room for a few more hours, when I have to cook dinner, being that there are the two idiots I wish to never see or hear.  My stress level has gone down rapidly since focusing more energy into ignoring their presence.  I had been literally, steadily going blind in both eyes for the past week or so.  I had gone to the hospital when it happened before.  They said it was caused by stress after a week of studying me.  It was quite awful.  Back then it was just a large black dot in my right eye.  This time it's in both eyes and it's several large dots in my right eye's line of sight and just one dot in the center.  They were completely black dots, but since my focusing on not stressing out, the dots have faded into a light fuzzy gray I can actually see through.  It is a little blurry but it is more manageable than it was the past week.  I was getting so irritable and snappy at Jeremy for no reason but my annoyance that I had let the others upset me to the point of going blind again.  I feel that in a few days the dots will be completely gone.  I just need to keep focusing on keeping my anger and thoughts in line.  I've actually been feeling pretty good lately, other than the vision.  I've also started taking fish oil, hoping that will help somehow.  I read that it helps regain brain function.  I have such a horrible memory.  I have this blog that I'm trying to update often mostly because of that.  If I don't update it often I literally can't remember half of what I had done the few days before.  I've also been wanting to get blueberries.  I had read another article about their properties of helping regain brain function as well.  It doesn't matter how active I keep my brain with reading and puzzle games, it still won't work how I want it to.  I'm trying to think of another way we could set up the bedroom so I could hook up my beloved Dance Dance Revolution so I can be more active in that way.  The streets around here are littered with homeless, junkies, and just people I don't want to walk past.  If it wasn't so annoying and gross just to drive down the street with all of that to view I would be fine with walking around the neighborhood.  But I'm not even comfortable leaving my room.  So that won't be happening anytime soon.  

        

        My boyfriend and I finished watching Tsukiyomi Moonphase.  It's about a young vampire girl who tries to make a dense 18ish year old man her slave.  It's a bit too lolli-con for my tastes.  But if you try to ignore the main female character it's a good anime.  We pretty much watched that all day.  After we woke up we went and bought KFC for dinner for ourselves and his mom.  Was good, I hadn't had it in a long time.  After that we watched American Ninja Warrior for a bit then Moonphase.  The day before yesterday was spent watching Hard Gay episodes and his wrestling matches on YouTube.  We were able to let the cats run around the whole house for the night.  It was great seeing how happy they were with exploring.  It really makes me sad that they have to be locked up in a bedroom most of the time. 

        I started keeping the bag of cat food and my large bag of wool for spinning on my camping chair for easier storage.  Sophie almost always sleeps on this chair and now with the added stuff, he tries to fit comfortably in the corner.  He's so cute.

        On Friday me and Jeremy took his mom to Hometown Buffet for her birthday.  She loves that place.  I wanted to try their shrimp specials..  They were okay.  I miss Red Lobster's all you can eat shrimp with my friend Jon. 

        I live a pretty unproductive life so I have nothing else I can think of to add.  So here's a picture of a cute Molly. 

What we think is one thing, how we handle it, is another.

Wheee.. Nothing of Interest.

        I really haven't done much in the amount of time I've been absent.  I played Catherine for the 360 for two of those days.  It is a really fun game.  I really enjoy puzzle games and the story is interesting.  I haven't read much of anything at all lately.  I played a bit of Angry Birds on my PSP, working on three starring everything is tedious.  While rummaging through boxes I found Tales of Genji which I am halfway through reading. 

        As of today, Molly has founf her new place of laying.  The back of my red and yellow camping chair.  She's constantly wobbling trying to balance herself on it. 

        Me and Jeremy got some Pizza Hut stuffed crust pizzas for dinner.  Hikage was eagerly following around and trying to get a crust.  We ended up giving him a small piece. 

          This is the lid to my Grandma's cow cookie jar..  I think it was her mom's at some point as well.  I inherited it from my mom.  Something happened to the jar itself, the bottom of it shattered.  It makes me quite sad.  It's a cute cow though. 

        A few days ago there was a bit of an argument between me and the whore that lives here.  Was a bit angering.  I spent well over an hour to two hours cleaning up her mess she left for me in the kitchen.  I went to bed and when I woke up people were telling me not to look at the kitchen.  She had made a worse mess than the day before.  The head of the household told me to leave it for her to clean.  So I waited three days.  She had managed to use literally ever dish in the house for one meal.  All the pots and pans, all the different sized plates and bowls.  It was the end of the third day and I said to the househead that I didn't think she was going to clean it while the moron was in the room next to me.  And the househead assured me she would clean it and I said sure the stupid bitch.  And the whore flipped on me.  Was I in the wrong to be angry, when I had spent over an hour cleaning her previous mess and woke up to a larger mess?  I felt justified, especially when it took her three days to get around to cleaning it.  But, whatever.  This household fails.  I honestly wish and hope that the whore and the retard that live here would die painful, agonizing deaths.  It would relieve all of the stress in this house, there would be literally no more drama.  I finally received my marriage certificate in the mail so I have an appointment to get my CA license tomorrow.  Then I have to find my title to my car and I can finally get myself a job that isn't IHSS bs.  Just a little bit longer and I can move out to my own place.